I'm not one to condemn an entire year to the dustbin but every once in a while I have a bad one that I'd rather forget. My last really bad year was in 1983 and it was the year that led me to vow never to make New Year's Resolutions ever again but fix what was wrong with my life as soon as I figured it out.
Unfortunately, I knew what was wrong with 2012 before it even happened but there was nothing I could do to fix it.
Basically, I'm going to consider 2012 a "no op" as they say in the computer biz. (Or at least we used to say that back in the days of Assembly programming.) It's the year that never was because nothing really happened.
It was the year of no racing, no working out, no benefits with my job...
Then again, I had a job. But a stressful one. It was the sort of situation I thought I'd left behind when the world of high tech started moving to Agile. But here I am back in the land of massive design documents that no one looks at, committing to deadlines without getting the resources it have a prayer of making those commitments, and pushing software out the door because the deadline arrives even if it's not soup yet.
It was also tough financially though I think we're going to be okay now. But I played chicken with my teeth to save money on dental insurance and lost. And then there was the month of Nov. without health insurance (though luckily the new insurance was assigned retroactively so there is technically no gap in coverage). But our new policy really sucks as it covers a lot less but costs the same.
Luckily the crazy project has led to a lot of paid overtime and that has made a big difference these past few months to the point where I might even be able to pay my taxes this year. Yahoo!
The hardest thing has been not being able to race or workout. I lost the entire season. Completely gone. Poof!
I'm fairly determined to get back into it in 2013. I'm still not 100% but I have gone more than 24 hours without a headache. Sometimes it's only been 26 hours but that's still more than 24! I can't really explain it, but I just feel better inside even if I can't point to any objective measure. I'm going to start walking every day and hope it won't set me back.
If it doesn't, maybe I can advance to the next step.
With the new insurance, I need a referral to see the neurologist. I'm doing all my "yearly" check-up stuff next week and will get it then. Hopefully, he'll have a better answer than "take some riboflavin."
Anyway, this year was kind of a lost but I'm sure 2013 will be much better and I'm just going to look forward and not behind. I really haven't got much choice.